|The following is my first piece of
fiction that I've put up here. Recently I've realized how much of a
reality a big war really is. I don't know if thinking about these kinds of
situations will make them any easier, but its something we all face now.
Anyway, I've got some funny stuff in the works, too, so don't get bummed
out and think I turned into some kind of puss fruit : D. Enjoy...
"I love you Sloth, and youíre
gonna stay with me, Iím gonna take care of you."
"Awwww, Chuuuuunk, I love you
My leg jerks, and I crack open my eyes.
I roll over and see that my friend was just finishing up The Goonies.
He had a pile of Slim Jim wrappers lying next to him. God those were
gross. The clock said it was 7:00, so he must have stayed up all night. I
went to bed at 2 Ė right around the time I got killed for the 6th time
in a row by that fucking AWP. I mean, I love it and everything, but only
when I use it. Anyway, thereís only so much CounterStrike2 one can take
before the bed is more tempting than the next knife kill.
My friend turns around and sees me
"Hey man, you missed The Goonies."
"Iíve seen it a hundred times
dude. Why didnít you watch Tron 2?"
"I did. I watched it before The
"Any good?" I rolled my legs
off the bed and sat there blinking, trying to get my contacts moistened up
enough to be able to see. I have to stop sleeping in those things.
Probably get eye cancer or something.
"It was ok, they did the motorcycle
thing again, that was the coolest part."
"Awesome." I surveyed my room
with an odd sense of urgency, something right on the tip of my brain. My
friend sitting on a mass of pillows watching TV next to my bed, console
games strewn across the floor. My computer glowing on the other side of my
bed, the menu for CounterStrike2 still up. What was I forgetting? I laid
back down, and looked up at my ceiling, and there it was. The
StarCraft 2 poster that came with World of Warcraft, tacked to my ceiling.
The date at the bottom of the poster said Summer, 2005. Of course, it was now December, 2005, but you know
Blizzard. Today was the day. The day I had waited for so long. None of
the other games mattered now, the Doom3 engine powered FPSís, the TFC2
or CS2, or WoW, or the waning WC3. None of it compared to SC2. I didnít
get in the Beta, but the screenshots and info on the game surpassed
anything I could have hoped for. It was the best looking game Iíd ever
seen. Marines with little lights on their shoulders that lit up at night,
glistening slimy zerglings, zealots whose blades cast a bluish glow on the
terrain around them. It was perfection.
And today was the day it came out. I had
my copy reserved at EB, and I remembered that we had planned to go there
at 8:00 and pick it up.
"Holy shit dude, StarCraft 2!",
I screamed when my split second daydream was over.
His response was simply to jump up with
wide eyes and squeal. Apparently he had forgotten about it for a few
hours, too. It wasnít like we hadnít been thinking about it every 6
seconds for the last 2 years, though. I quickly got up and poured some
contact solution in my eyes, and stuck my head under the faucet to get it
wet. I lather up some face soap, and rub it in as I watch my friend dig
under the pillows for his t-shirt.
StarCraft 2. Oh my God, itís here. New
NoHunters. New everything. New BattleReports. New best game ever.
I heard a loud thump as my friend
managed to fall down trying to put his pants on. I finished up in the
bathroom and slipped into some jeans and a shirt.
"You ready? We gotta go if weíre
gonna get there by 8.", I asked my friend who was digging around in
"Yah, I gotta get my wallet."
He found it and bounded out the door with me, skipping like a 5th
grade girl to my car. We got in and pulled out of my driveway. Just a few
blocks from my apartment we saw some blue lights flashing; looked like an
accident. As we got closer, I saw that it was one of my neighbors. He had
been talking incessantly about getting a new Mustang for weeks, and there
he was, with the car. Brand new, right off the lot, and smashed to crap.
Apparently someone had just pulled out in front of him. Man, that had to suck. He was just staring at it blankly. Didnít look
like he was hurt, though, so we just drove past, headed for the mall.
As we turned into the parking lot, I
started to get that feeling. You know, like when you went to see Lord
of the Rings at the theatre? Something youíve waited for so long
that actually not having to wish for it anymore hurts. I could tell
my friend was feeling the same way, he was smiling madly. We walked in the
front entrance, and had to strain not to just all out run to EB. We got
there right as it was opening, and we were the first in the store. There
were about 20 other people there for SC2 as well, and we all exchanged
exclamations about how this was indeed the day to end all days. I saw the
display stand full of SC2s and grabbed one to check out the box art. It
looked fantastic, even though I still hated those little boxes. I read on
the back, and it proclaimed in the large StarCraft font:
"Nothing will be the same."
Damn straight. I want you to take me,
StarCraft 2, take me and ravish my social life.
I went to the counter and told the guy
my name and my friendís name, paid, and was handed my two copies of
StarCraft. This was it. This was it. I kept telling myself over and over.
This time, we did run back to the car.
We peeled out of the parking lot at
breakneck speed, determined to get dibs on all the coolass names on B.Net.
The scenery flew by, my eyes constantly darting down to the box in my lap.
About halfway home, the music on the radio suddenly stopped. It was a
special news bulletin. I listened to it, and slowly stopped the car.
Slowly pulled over onto the side of the road. Slowly lost myself in
complete, utter, confusion.
"I repeat, New York City has been
flattened by a nuclear blast. The Pentagon is due to make a statement
within the next 10 minutes. All areas are being evacuated. Manhatten is
gone, the whole city is gone, oh my God I canít believe this. Wait, the
White House has just released a statement declaring this an act of
terrorism. Oh my GodÖ"
The announcerís voice trembled. He was
on the verge of tears. I realized that I felt completely numb. How else
could I react? I looked around, and saw that cars had stopped everywhere, people
were standing on the side of the street, just staring at the ground,
listening to radios, watching TVs in stores. The whole world seemed to have stopped.
A penetrating silence slammed into my eardrums. I remembered
how I felt on September 11th, how I simply couldnít believe
it, and how the 2 year "War on Terrorism" fizzled to us
declaring occupancy of half the middle east. We never did go into Iraq,
and we never did come through with our nuclear threats. And now this. The
one thing we never thought would happen. The announcer continued to relay the facts as they came in. A constant stream of
statistics and numbers that hammered the
reality into me more and more. I knew that I still couldnít believe it.
I had to see it.
I blinked my eyes and looked over at my
friend. He was just looking straight ahead. I pulled back onto the road
and continued home. We passed the Mustang wreck; they were all
standing next to the tow-truck, listening to the radio. My neighborís
blank stare at the Mustang must have had much more meaning now. It all
happened so fast.
We got home and ran upstairs to my
apartment. I turned on the TV.
Oh My God.
Reality sometimes surpasses your darkest
The image on the screen was a of vast,
blackened, skeleton of a city. Everything was gone for miles and miles.
Smoke everywhere. Everything gone. A little bar on the screen said the
death toll was in the millions. This had to have been at least a 25
megaton blast. New York is 309 square miles, and from what I saw, a good
chunk of that was in the complete destruction zone. That means this was no
suitcase nuke. This was big, very, very big.
Oh My God. This war will kill us all.
It hit me like a brick. This was the
kind of stuff you honestly think has less of a chance of happening than
you winning the lottery.
My friend sat down on my bed, and just
stared at the StarCraft 2 box. I looked at it, again. Every feeling inside
me was different now. Everything had changed. Again. We thought life was
different after September 11th, but that was nothing in
comparison to what this will be. What would we do? What kind of inevitable
massacre would result from this? I wondered when weíd start launching missiles. I wondered when the world would start to die. My computer faded
from my mind, the forums I visited faded. NoHunters faded. Play-fucking-Station
3 faded. I couldnít understand my emotions, I just knew that the
pain I felt in realizing that I had lost so much in so little time,
without anything actually happening to me, hurt too much for me to
stand. It just didnít make sense.
Would I ever post on BattleReports
again? Would I ever join another B.Net game called gay/ass? Would I ever
look back and regret spending so much time anticipating StarCraft 2?
I only knew one thing for sure.
Nothing would be the same.
Me a Line.